entering

a great state of depression. FUCKING AWESOME!
yesterday was the best day ever and today is the worst day ever.

i don't want my birthday, i don't want 18, i don't want anything anymore. i want to be left alone
none of you fucking understand.
i feel like i'm back in junior year again.
i have no more strength in me.

falling into place

My next goal is to get that tatted beautiful as fuck after my birthday.

I feel like people arent gonna remember that day for some reason, im expecting nothing cause birthdays usually suck...
but i'm definitely gonna try my hardest for that not to happen.

kinda lame weekend.
i've been growing tired of everything. people bother me more and more and fucking more.
i don't see myself becoming a pothead again, which is progress i suppose... oh and i lost 3 pounds hollaholla

i'm glad i'm close to the people i have. i love bonds and relationships.
speaking of,
i miss wolf way too much. he's beyond great in every single way. i wish i wasn't so timid around his friends, thats usually what i'm not. i'll let my guard down eventually.

fuck. 5:26 am?
sweet dreams dreamers.

Cause I've seen more spine on jellyfish

I've seen more guts on eleven-year-old kids

Have another drink and drive yourself home

I hope there's ice on all the roads

And you can think of me when you forget your seatbelt

then when your head goes through the windshield






Passion, longing desire, cherished, wishful.
they all add up to the mixture of feelings that build up inside of me without hesitation.
lets just hope it doesnt come back and bite me in the ass.

the garden that you planted

remains.


i've learned over time that promises are just strings of hope given that always break.
but some always seem to make me smile.
sticksandpancake (7:22:56 PM): I love you Pam
sticksandpancake (7:23:03 PM): Don't ever forget.
sticksandpancake (7:23:09 PM): I promise I always will.

i guess that's how the future's doneee

hooked on the lykke li station on pandora..

i'm slightly unsure how i feel about my new jet black hair, but it doesn't matter too much anyways.
i've been feeling the insanity more and more a little each day and i really want to be content with everything and get my shit together already. after my birthday next week things should start getting on track. i hate feeling lost.

this past week brought upon way too many unnecessary emotions.
why can't things happen when they're supposed to?

good news is, macy's security slacks even at its so called best!
bad news is, i've been wishing i could start over one too many times lately.

damn.